what my heart want to say?

it’s really hard to say sorry to someone that we hurt before..it depends on the strength of our mind and soul..i’m not really so strong to say that word currently..i know that I’ve done big mistakes on my relationship that called ‘friends”..all it begins since the new semester started on May 2011..i have no commitment to attend classes, consultation with my thesis supervisor and also to keep my promise..there is something that I’ve been missing..the ability to arrange the programme still in the same mood..i don’t know what am I trying to find in that period..right now I have tried to forget everything that messing my mind..but only one thing that is difficult to do to my buddy..asking forgiveness.. I know that it is hard you to accept all the things I have done..

i’m so cruel in sudden I left all the things without giving any explanation to you..huh..i know that you are sad with my behavior which I didn’t put any effort to make things right..i don’t know how to faced  you if we met suddenly…I know..i should left myself far from you to eliminate me repeated mistakes in the future…there is nothing to share anymore..i hope you enjoy your life without my existing..that is the best way to each one of us..supposedly i’ve should getting far from you since the conflict happen in August 2010..but I didn’t realize that..i’m too generous to continue our relationship as close friend..one things is I never want to retrofit the relationship itself.. it doesn’t mean to off the relation..i don’t what I have done….sorryy..

Lie Become Truth ONLY If Person Want To Believe It

I'm watched Karate Kid Part II 1986 .. never look at this story before .. Part I i already watched them  but I cannot remember.. I look back Part I of that last week .. I refresh back in Part I, when Daniel went to costume shower party .. .. 'Lie Become Truth ONLY If Person Want To Believe It' .. I really like this verse ... I'm take out the text from the story Karate Kid Part II .. the verse from the mouth of Mr. Miyagi .. Mr. Miyagi is a master of Daniel .. if we want to know the synopsis of this story please click this link ... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Karate_Kid, _Part_II ...

life does not always wonderful and happy always .. sometimes the people around us as an example does not know the real story about what we do .. for example, gossip about other people ... .. as I'm no exception I do it to others .. I am doing gossip through the messages through the handset .. at that time, God wanted to show His power in me .. I was wrong to send the message to the person I was gossip .. I never said sorry to the person and just keep quiet for two and a half months ... felt so sorry at that time .. but after that, I apologize to him because we are reaching a semester break at that moment..

I do not tell this to anyone, including the close friends and family. ..for me if I told again, it's just embarrassing myself only .. at the time, silence is the best way to eliminate all .. but I was wrong. . this was happened in June 2010 ... was a full year this incident occurred on myself .. I know I was wrong at the time ... I let them say what they want ... there are also some to defend their friends with words , said sarcastically to me ... I have to anticipate what will happen .. I just leave .. sometimes, I lose focus in all ... lesson here is if we do not want people to say, we do other people say ... look at yourself before see others .. hopefully this is a lesson for all ...

i'm sorry my buddy

I do not know what ever happened with me now ... I was worried I was wrong-doers and you .. I have damaged what you have planned .. but I have no intention to do so .. if I had the opportunity to rectify the situation, I will .. I knew I was not serious about doing something .. and I ended up missing ... I know the role you was given keys to me .. I know I am slow in doing something .. I like to postpone any work until the last minute. . but I do not know .. I destroy everything ....